Animal-Based and Faith Fueled: My First Trimester, Part I

Published: April 19, 2024

Written By: Amanda, Owner - Primal Point Health

In Part II, I’ll do a more technical dive into supplements I used, the labs I took, and my dietary concerns while I was pregnant.

First, I wanted to share a bit about the emotional side of my first trimester (which, to be honest, I didn’t expect) and tell a couple personal stories.

I found out I was pregnant the day before Mother’s Day, which was also the day before Kris and I left for our vacation. We booked a 5 day cruise to the Bahamas for our first wedding anniversary.

We had been trying for 11 months and didn’t exactly have great odds. Some fertility testing (HSG procedure) confirmed I only had one Fallopian tube (on the right side), so whenever I was ovulating on the left side, it simply would not be possible to conceive. We agreed that after the one year mark, we would explore hormonal options to help increase our chances.

On Mother’s Day weekend, I was 7 or 8 days late with a few symptoms, and I just needed to know before packing – was I pregnant or not? To my absolute shock, the test was positive. I cried in the shower, asked God to keep us healthy, safe and strong, and then I played some George Strait. “Blue Clear Sky” felt very appropriate. So it all turned out kind of perfectly.

That is, until a few days later, when my nausea completely vanished, for an entire 24 hours. I took this to mean, just like that, my baby was gone. I spent the rest of the day immensely sad. My heart ached, and a romantic, celebratory vacation was the furthest thing from my mind. Being on the cruise ship, I didn’t have cell service and couldn’t even google anything or text my friends, which made me feel worse.

But the next morning, I woke up to extreme hunger and nausea. I immediately skedaddled out of our cabin for the breakfast buffet. I felt pregnant again!

The way I jumped to conclusions the day before probably had a lot to do with my expectations for my pregnancy: I expected a miscarriage because of my own birth defects (some missing organs, and a rather weak abdominal wall that has led to a couple hernia surgeries).

Also, in the past year I had multiple late periods. Until we started trying, that had never happened before. My period was always on time and always regular. But I’ve read it’s common to be pregnant and lose it before you can even know it or test positive. This was my assumption for all those times I was late and the test was negative. So, my confidence in my body to handle pregnancy was a bit shaky.

After the nausea ghosted me and then returned, I was determined to have a different attitude. In the coming weeks it would be impossible to know if my body was adjusting to pregnancy, or letting go of it. So, I was not going to obsess about what my body was or wasn’t doing, or the symptoms that were coming and going. I chose to hold onto faith instead.

Jesus has given us every authority to not live in worry, doubt or fear. And in fact, he went through great lengths to give us that authority.

Which reminds me of a quote my pastor shared: “Jesus plus nothing equals everything.” We tend to think we need to add something to this equation in order to control things, or because we feel Jesus isn’t quite enough for our situation. But He really is everything, all by Himself, in every circumstance. And during my pregnancy I wanted to show up in a way that honored my belief in this truth, the authority He has given me, and my trust in Him with the results of everything in my life.

Ok – one more quick story!

Fast forward to almost 10 weeks pregnant – I was planning a homebirth that my husband wasn’t exactly thrilled about. Our conversations surrounding it felt isolating, discouraging, and just not as joyful as I had hoped.

I opened up to my midwife about how I was struggling with the lack of emotional support while planning to bring my child into the world. So she connected me with some other homebirth moms in Leland. And guess what? They were EXACTLY what I needed. An “I’ve been there, Mama” were such kind words, and sometimes that’s all an anxious heart needs. And guess what else? Almost a year later, we have become such close friends.

At the same time, I also randomly got an email from someone I didn’t know. She was accidentally copied on an email chain, but wanted to take the time to send me some encouragement for my pregnancy and homebirth. Her kindness moved me so much and had me in tears. Later on, we met, and she has become a close friend as well.

Connecting with like-minded women while planning my homebirth journey was such a powerful experience. Encouragement from women who have gone before me was incredibly beneficial to me during the first trimester, I don’t know what I would have done without it. So, if you’re struggling with something, don’t be afraid to speak up and ask for help. We are all in this crazy thing called life together, and all women in all stages are worthy of love and support.

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